merci beaucoup

It's scary, and I cant sleep so I decided to write. I hate to sacrifice, but hating doesnt simply mean  I wont do it. I do it now,did it yesterday and will do it tomorrow. But the question is, is it worth it? I dont know. Is it? This fear i have to face now, is it worth it? or the tears, or the pain and confusions. I dont know.. I sacrifice my selfishness, i can scream and get mad or simply just cry. But nope, I'm holding up my tears and suck everything up because everyone, once again make sacrifices, so is he, and so am I. But is it worth it? i dont know.. i swear, i dont know.